Due to some horrific things that happened during my childhood I grew up feeling ashamed of who I was at the core of my being. I was deeply ashamed of being a person especially a girl. I thought for sure that God hated and blamed me for what happened to me as a young girl. I completely ignored my body never taking care of myself physically. I had deep feelings of anger, and hatred towards myself, others, and God. For years I was too ashamed to get out and meet other people. I stayed home most of the time where it was safe and nobody would reject me. I was ashamed of who I was and thought others would feel the same way if they knew my secrets. Who would want to be my friend?
Then I saw one of your video’s Nick and how you had so much energy, life, and vitality. You loved life and wanted others to love life too. You were not ashamed of being limbless and wanted others to know that God loved them just the way God created them. I watched the movie you were in called Butterfly Circus and the movie taught me that despite being limbless God has a purpose for your life. So I thought maybe God had a purpose for my life. I started going to counseling. I started having a stronger relationship with Jesus, I forgave those who hurt me. I’m starting to make friends. One of my favorite things to do is to say YES to life experiences unless it’s against God will or I can not financially afford it. I used to say NO to everything. Having a Yes mentality has taken me on adventures I never thought would happen in my life. I Love life now with my husband and son. I still have hard day’s when I feel ashamed but I am reminded that God never wants me to be ashamed of myself or feel guilt over things that were not my fault. I’m created in the image of God to do wonderful, loving things for Him. God has a plan and purpose for my life.
Thanks Nick for teaching me that Life is meant to be LIVED to the Glory of God with as much excitement and love that you can give it!!